Guest Author Patricia Weil
Part One
Synopsis of “
Emma is an innocent, the product
of a simple piety that no longer exists in the world that most of us know. Her marriage is not a love match. She has been singled out and chosen, much in
the manner of a necessary life commodity.
Her husband, Ralston, a small farmer, is a man who has been emotionally
limited, even damaged. Ralston’s idea of
marriage precludes intimacy. A
determined and driven worker in his occupation as farmer, in his own time he
pursues a petty rural debauchery. Emma's
close relationships with other women, her gratification as a mother, form her
world.
Henry is an ardent
character. We first see him as a young
adult in love with the world and its possibilities, which for him will be
cruelly limited. Henry has a deep love
for the natural world, for his wife Lillian, his brother Drefus, as well as a
strong but thwarted love for learning. The relationship between Henry and his
genteel wife, Lillian, is as companionable and tender as Emma's marriage is
stark. Unlike Ralston, Henry is a loving
and playful father. Lillian becomes
aware very gradually, as we do as readers, that Henry is an alcoholic. Victim of this common disease, he is also
victim to forces beyond his control--the worst years of the Great
Depression. His family life cannot
withstand the circumstances into which it is forced: that of being moved into a flimsy shotgun
house at the farther edges of the town’s white slums. He and Drefus resort to "riding the
rails" for much of the Depression. It
is several decades later, during his stay in the state mental hospital, that he
forms a deep attachment to a young psychiatrist who, without being aware of it,
acts as a catalyst for Henry's self-reclamation.
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Author Information
I know the world of this novel; I grew up in it–in
My Master’s degree is in English,
this choice being made for the love of writing.
I was a good bit torn between literature and psychology. I have spent most of my professional life as
an English teacher. I retired early and
pursued the other love, by becoming a certified Life Coach. My greatest pleasure in this area is teaching
classes in stress management, which I often do on a pro bono basis.
My love for literature remains
unchanged. Someone has said that
literature contains “the best of what’s been thought and said in the world.” I agree with that.
… There were his children. There was Lillian. The building was swinging apart. Sheets of water cut through it. It was dark. He was losing them.
The
dream ended.
And
recalling it, on a bright and safe June afternoon years past that place in
time, Henry was shaken – though the nightmare had left him altogether while he
was with the boy. He’d had none of that
odd, faraway feeling that trailed around after a dream like that one. They had been crawdadding at the trestle pond
on Highway 80. That afternoon Henry had
done nothing more than watch Rallie safely inside his daughter’s house after
their expedition. Betty Kate and Frank
had the old Skinner house, just blocks down from Henry’s own room on Alabama Avenue .
…
The
afternoon was coming to a close – people were just beginning to return home
from work. Henry didn’t acknowledge the
fact that his comings and goings to his daughter’s house were sometimes
contrived to avoid meeting Frank “Buddy” Griffen. The important thing that afternoon was that
he needed some time. That matter of the
dream required a good thinking about. …
He
smoked. He thought of David Levy and
felt a little better. Henry had never
understood Levy’s reactions to his dreams – he had few enough of them, as it
was. For some reason or another, Levy
always seemed disappointed in Henry’s dreams.
He’d ask him questions that didn’t seem, to Henry, to apply. But now Henry smiled, thinking back on
it. He could see the young doctor
lifting his head in a quick nod, maybe lifting a finger. It was Henry’s signal to go on talking. He was instructed at times to go on talking,
no matter what came out, no matter how crazy or off the subject it
sounded. Just keep talking – Levy
stressed how important that was. …
And
Levy was right. Dreams had a way of
telling the truth. He had, after all,
lost her; he had lost all of them, except Betty Kate. It was decades back that he lost her – he
couldn’t have said, even now, exactly when it had been that he knew it was
so. Long before that gray morning in’32
when he had walked over from Strayer’s, out of the heart of the town and into East Clanton . This
after having made himself as presentable as possible, coming on weeks or more
of riding the rails; his mouth tasting salty from brushing his teeth too
hard. He had crossed the railroad yard,
the fan of spreading tracks, and entered the back yard of the shotgun house:
knowing before his foot even hit the back stoop. Knowing that she had left not just the house
but had left him, Henry.
His
eyes were immediately drawn to the cardboard box placed so intentionally in the
doorway, between the two rooms.
Mute. Confirming everything.
…
… It had taken him hours, only, to locate
her. She had opened the door, not thinking,
absent-mindedly not looking through the door pane. So that when she opened the door, Henry stood
just inside the threshold, his body blocking the door.
“You
will not come into this house!” She fairly spat the words at him, Lillian
did.
But
of course he would go no further. It was
the habit of his lifetime to obey this diminutive person. Her voice by itself would have stopped
him. Not like Lillian – not Lillian’s
voice. But ragged, almost gravelly. That quickly she had worked herself into a fury,
her chest moving as though she’d been running.
She was fierce -- he would have never thought her capable of it. …
… On reflex he stepped back from the door, and
Lillian closed it. She was no longer his
wife.
…
…
Henry chuckled to himself as he walked, thinking back to the boy and his
crawdad fight. Henry had never, until
now, had a boy, only daughters. Rallie,
Betty Kate’s boy. Henry had been
surprised that she had agreed to name him Ralston, after the old man. He was a mean one, all right, the old
fellow. But Henry thought fondly of the
farm woman Emma who was his wife.
= = =
Emma moved
slowly that afternoon – which wasn’t her way.
It was her habit to be in motion, and she moved with the directness of a
schoolgirl, a little heavy on her feet; hurrying. On the day of the Letter, Emma had to make
herself move against her will. She would
like to sit inside her kitchen, just sit, pull her arms in around her and
think. …
…
Time was when the world seemed to move past, outside Emma, like a thing she
could reach out and touch. Now, the
world moved from the inside, out. She
was the mother. She was the source. The world depended on Emma.
The
worktable where Emma sat was crowded with cooking things. Now she lay the letter down among them, the
pencil marks already rubbed down to something like faded ink. For a second time, her attention was caught
by the voices of her children. She felt
wealthy in her children … Nettie was her
oldest. … There was Ralph … There was Ned … Billy, the youngest … But Buddy – there was her oldest son,
Buddy. When Emma thought of him, a smile
started behind her eyes and that didn’t quite make it to her face. … He
was a handsome boy – everybody bragged about Buddy. …
…
… Ralston was twenty-two when his formal
wedding photograph was taken. At that
age a handsome man in an unlikely sort of way.
Dark, thin-lipped, with a sharp, slightly hooked nose. Most people could see that in Ralston Griffen
there was something that was not altogether friendly. But he was courteous – it didn’t draw
comment. Ralston joked easily enough,
amused himself among his cronies; with his buddies there was a certain
cockiness about him. That summer of
1914, when he first became interested in Emma Swann, he’d been more than
usually satisfied with himself. He’d
done some traveling around the state, and had bought a farm in central Alabama for, as he
bragged, little more than back taxes. He
had found the farm; now he needed a wife to go with it. … And
in this regard the Swann sisters had been the first to come to mind. … He
would have Emma, the middle sister. …
…
Emma
had known that on the evening of that particular dance, something was bound to
happen with the Griffen fellow, what with the way he had taken to staring at
her. And she looked forward to basking
in the little sun of a woman being openly courted. But Ralson had worked it out differently.
… For the longest time, he refrained from
dancing … He paid no attention at all to
Emma. …
Ralston singled out a certain Jane McGowan, a pretty girl in an anemic
sort of way, and danced exclusively with her.
…
… The pace of the music increased. The players whipped into a polka, a fast
one. …
He led Jane McGowan into a whirl of a polka so fast that within the first
rounds the other dancers stepped back.
… It was an act of splendid
showmanship. Emma and her sisters tried
to look anywhere but in the direction that everyone else was looking. Emma was properly mortified.
But
then there had been a change, when the main fiddler had begun a slow, whining
waltz. Ralston walked up to her.
“Emma.” He held out his hand – it would have been
proper to call her Miss Emma. Certain
onlookers were suddenly curious.
…
The
evening was a jumble, from that point – Emma was not her right self. She was over self-conscious, flighty. She made conversation that was silly. Through every minute of that evening, with or
without him as partner, Emma was aware of exactly where Ralston was. And uneasily.
He had a kind of look about him.
His eyes jeered, or they dared her – something, she didn’t know how to
say. …
It
was late when the dancing came to an end, but the night air was still thick and
hot. Ralston’s voice was a little
startling in the sudden quiet that followed the music. “Emma, you go ask your folks if I can drive
you home.”
Ralston
never properly proposed to Emma.
Possibly it was an oversight. He
took his success much for granted. And
as it was, his behavior on that evening had resulted in the very effect he had
counted on. Emma had been made unsure of
herself. …
It
was a poor conversation they had on that slow wagon. And Emma Swann couldn’t know that this
paucity would be a fact of her life with the man who was sitting beside
her. As she saw it, there must have been
something she wasn’t doing right. …
…
For
his own part, Ralston would have been content to drive without talking unless
something in particular occurred to him.
Thoughts of the farm absorbed him.
He didn’t stop to think that the pictures so full in his mind were blank
and silent to Emma; so that for him there was no suddenness, not even a break
in thought, when he abruptly spoke out, “Got us a nice place, Emma. Think you’re gonna like it.”
Well
then, it would be all right. … The world was a place that suited Emma after
all.
It
would happen to her, Emma. She would be
married. Emma smiled. She was going to be the first.
= = =
… No one approved of the business of Yankee
investors – that topic would bring up the usual rounds of complaints. Most people would be likely to guess that the
mark of the beast was the dollar. Or it
would be alcohol. In 1914 Alabama was bone
dry. Henry had no clear thoughts worked
out on the subject – he fancied the words, the mystery of them. But a picture came into his mind, a thing
that troubled him. The children that
worked at the mill, that little sharp line on their foreheads. And the men and women, some of the faces stupid
with malnutrition. The mill owners were
greedy. Greed. He’d decided. Greed was the mark of the beast. Henry thought of the cotton mill where his
father worked as manager – it was at its worst in hot weather, which had just
recently passed. He would be expected to
fill his father’s position, once Mr. Gray decided to give it up. As a sort of unofficial under manager, he had
to meddle with everything – be alert for injuries, signs of heat exhaustion,
all manner of detail. The worst of it
was that among the brothers his father had singled him out for the mill. An honor.
That he was the chosen one. Of
his own accord, he’d have never set foot in the place. It was the single and painful bane of his
existence. His plan was to escape it at
the earliest possibility. He was well
aware, though, that without this position at the mill, he could not have
proposed to Lillian. He couldn’t have
asked for her hand, while still walking behind a plow. Lillian required more than that.
= = =
Emma’s heels
made a loud, hollow sound, as she began down the aisle to join Ralston. The pianist handled The Wedding March a little clumsily. Down toward the front, to one side of the
pulpit, Ralston stood, hands clasped properly in front of him, with eyes so
unnaturally blank, he appeared to look through the walls of the building. His hair was still damp. He wore a new suit, very formal. The change startled Emma. And for a moment her attention came to a halt
at the sight of him. She didn’t know
this dark, strained-looking person. And
that wasn’t supposed to be. If
inclination had been all that mattered, she might have turned then and walked
just as easily back out of the church.
…
On
the following morning there was an awkwardness between the two of them. … Both
felt an urgency to be on their way, to make good time. …
Beyond this farm lay new, open miles and the towns of Enterprise ,
Elba , Luverne.
Now Emma’s sense of adventure returned to her. And Ralston’s good humor. …
… The wiregrass roads were deep in sand
throughout the summer. The wheels of the
wagon fell into the ruts beneath, making it difficult to steer out again. As the morning brightened, they entered
stretches of pine woods, where the mosquitoes were vicious. Ralston swatted and slapped. Emma was unexpectedly shy about dabbing oil
of citronella on his neck, his ears and
forehead.
The
afternoon fell into a heat-soaked lull.
She couldn’t have said exactly when the trouble began. Emma elbowed Ralston, hard – hard enough to
cause him to look over at her with astonishment, to see her swallowing as
though she were about to be sick.
“I
want to go home.”
“What?”
“I
want to go home!” And the outburst of
tears began. What had she been thinking
about, Emma asked herself now, coming off like this, with a man who was little
more than a stranger? This thing she had
done – it had been a mistake. She hadn’t
thought long enough. She had moved under
water. Now, she surfaced, and the
reality of it washed over her. The
weeping became ragged. Emma’s face had
broken out in fierce red blotches.
“What
do you mean, you want to go home? We got
a farm, now, Emma, our own place.” It
would have been more appropriate to point out that they were married. But the word “married” would have been too
new and too foreign to Ralston’s tongue.
And in some way too intimate. It
would have referred, unavoidably, to the events of last night.
Emma
actually didn’t hear him. Her speech was
stupid. “But I never thought –.“
“What
do you mean, you never thought?”
“I
just didn’t, that’s all.”
Ralston
had no answer for this. He didn’t know what
to do with a weeping woman – it embarrassed him. He looked at her. She didn’t look back. He might have patted her a little on the shoulder
– but that wouldn’t have been quite the thing.
Another type of woman he would have jollied. But his mind made no parallels between Emma
and that type of woman.
“You’ll
like it when we get there.” It was a
feeble response.
But
Emma had quieted down. Because there was
nothing else to do. And because she was
quiet from simple amazement.
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